FattyMatty9069
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Message #3866 posted by FattyMatty9069 (Info) September 01, 2002 03:37:06 ET
I'm 17 and I'm a male and I smoke. got a problem with it? don't reply. I'm telling anyone here that reads this that smoking marijuana saved my life. about 7 years ago, I was in the 6th grade and I started to get really depressed. my grades in school went down the drain. my parents took me to doctors and got me on paxil. it helped, but I still was depressed. and in about a year I first tried cannibas. I thought it was just another way 2 get "fucked up". I was still bad and started to smoke cigarettes. so I went through my dads bedroom and found a bag of weed. I had never thought of my dad to smoke pot before. as any young kid would do, I took some. I rolled my first joint(not to great, really funny story for another time) and I smoked it alone and just sat and observed the effects. I was happy for the 1st time in like 2 years. I woke up the next morning and was really happy. I stayed that way for about a month(didn't smoke in that month) and then I got depressed again. I thought I was depressed cuz of the weed so I stopped. but I never forgot that month of happiness. so I was once again depressed, w/ a fake happy. I wanted to be happy so bad that I would be happy around people, and cry myself to sleep. when I was in my sophmore year of highschool, I was at the verge of suicide. I started smoking again. this time I had a job and could afford my habit. and once again I was happy. suicide sounded so dumb anymore. I then thought, well marijuana is a drug, why not see if other drugs would make me happier and I tried it all. I mean from xtc, to heroin. I thank god now that I didn't get addicted to any of those. and one nite I had a freak out, I was throwing shit at my parents cuz I was on speed, beer, and a bunch of pain killers. and I went to the hospital, not a fun nite. so I stopped everything but weed. and now I smoke everyday. my parents know but don't like it, but I told them I would never stop. anyways, this past junior year, I got all a's on my report card. I also held 2 jobs this summer and never had a day off. I made over 3,000 dollars this summer for college. I am drum major in my high school marching band. and I have a reggae band that will be making cd's pretty soon. and I acheived all of this while smoking everyday.(give or take a few days here and there) I cry when I think about what it has done for me. It took me from the verge of suicide, to a great person. people that know me tell me constantly that I have 2 big of a heart. and I'm happy. and I'll be damned if anyone is going to take this from me. just a little story that newbies can read to decide if they want to smoke or not. I'd say yes, no matter what. It only saved my life, what could it do for you?
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